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Grief squeezed at her eggshell heart like it might break into a thousand pieces, its contents running like broken promises... into the hollow places his love used to fill. How could she know this pain would end? That love, unlike matter or energy, was in endless supply in the universe... A germ which grows from nothingness which cannot be eradicated even from the darkest of hearts. If she had known this — and who could say she would believe it? — she would not have chanced to remain at his sad grave until such an hour, so that she might not have to learn the second truth before the first; that to have love was to carry a vessel that could be lost or stolen... or worse, spilled blood-red on the ground. And that love was not immutable, it could become hate as day becomes night, as life becomes death." - XF 6x18, "Milagro"
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24th-Jul-2008 04:34 pm - In the final hours...
As I countdown the time until I am at the theater watching The X-Files:  I Want to Believe in all its glory, I wanted to share some articles that came out today that have had me laughing, crying, smiling, cringing or beaming with pride.

First of all, some well-written odes to Dana Scully and to Gillian Anderson for portraying her well. 

These women authors are bringing a tear to my eye as they relive our collective youth, capture our excitement over the new movie and lament the roles women have been given in movies and television recently...

Where have all the heroines gone?

Scully Have I Loved
http://www.salon.com/ent/movies/feature/2008/07/24/scully/

Dana Scully: Bringing Women Together In Fangirldom For 15 Years
http://jezebel.com/5028718/dana-scully-bringing-women-together-in-fangirldom-for-15-years

Feminism and The X-Files (My Ode to Dana Scully)
http://community.feministing.com/2008/07/feminism-and-the-x-files-my-od.html

And bonus piece - an amazing story about a disabled woman who's love for Scully and Gillian is helping her overcome the odds and hang on.  

Despite pain, woman believes in better days thanks to X-Files
http://www.latimes.com/entertainment/news/movies/la-et-green24-2008jul24,0,3565548.story

This piece by a blogger on CHUD.com has me dying with laughter...so effing true

I Want to Believe
http://chud.com/articles/blogs/974/I-Want-to-Believe.html

And finally, these two premiere pictures have me swooning with delight.  I love when they touch each other.  LOL.





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XF - MS Love
22nd-Jul-2008 04:23 pm - Hometown Throwdown

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OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG.
  
I got my midnight show tickets today too!  Squee!!!  Anyone that doesn't know yet - a bunch of us from Haven (and some of my non-phile friends) are seeing the show at the 34th St. Cinema.  If you're interested in joining, let me know!

I'll update soon with ridiculous pics from my trip up to the Cape this weekend.  I'm too wired with XF at the moment!

I have three words for you.

LEG. WRESTLING. CHAMP.

Enough said!  :)

 

XF - You Must Believe
15th-Jul-2008 03:09 pm - MASSIVE "X-FILES: I WANT TO BELIEVE" POST

Ok, here's my problem.


When news of the second movie hit, I got sucked back into X-Files fandom at a disgustingly absurd level. My devotion is bigger than it was when I was 18, I think - if that's even remotely possible. It's a mix of nostalgia, excitement and the feeling like I've regained something that was lost - something I was just fine living without when I had to, but that i don't want to go on living without again if I don't have to. Does that make sense?


I want people to be reminded about why they loved the show so long ago, about all the beautiful things it represents, about the cool atmosphere it projects, about the true scare and how it isn't about gore but about a mood and a flash and a heart-pounding tension.


And at it's core, this show and these movies are about love. Love for another person that is truly the other half of yourself. Someone who would lay down their life for you. It's about love for the truth. Love for justice and heroism. Love for the possible, of what might be out there. Love for an ideal, a belief, something greater than yourself.


I WANT TO BELIEVE.


I just want this movie to succeed so badly!! I want it to become a small franchise - with at least one more film in the canon. And then, I will be able to let it go, let it live on in collective memory.


So, the problem is that I don't feel this film is being given a proper chance. It's not being marketed the way I hoped it would, and it's being put up against a monster juggernaut called The Dark Knight. TDK will have only been out for a week when IWTB bows in theaters - how can anyone really get excited for this movie when TDK is in their faces 24/7, and is an example of a film with the best sort of marketing - marketing that makes everyone feel as if they would die if they didn't see it opening day??

 

Ok, rather than ranting my day away, I've gathered a bunch of cool X-Files shit and I'm putting it out here into the world in one spot where hopefully those on my F-list that aren't Philes could spread the word a little bit just cuz they like me and want to see me happy. :)


Seriously guys, GO SEE THIS MOVIE. I'll figure out a way to repay you, I promise. :)


1) The official website!


http://www.xfiles.com


It has a cool contest, a blog written by David Duchovny, downloads, things for your cell phone, and a widget for your desktop.


2) Upcoming talk show appearances:


July 15th - LENO – David Duchovny

July 22nd - LETTERMAN - Amanda Peet

July 22nd - LENO – Gillian Anderson

July 23rd - REGIS AND KELLY - Amanda Peet

July 24th - LETTERMAN – David Duchovny

July 24th - CRAIG FERGUSON (12:30 ET) - Amanda Peet

July 25th - REGIS AND KELLY - David Duchovny

July 28th - LETTERMAN - Gillian Anderson

July 29th - KIMMEL - Gillian Anderson

July 30th - KIMMEL – David Duchovny


3) Haha! SpikeTV is awesome - I like the way things are advertised to men way better than they are advertised to women. Just funnier. Funny works for girls too people!


A Salute to Fox Mulder...(I would embed it, but that just causes problems that I can’t fix, because I’m either an idiot or my LJ is busted, I’m not sure which).


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XJcHvM-j38k



4)  Check out these fan-made movie posters.  I love them!  People can be so creative and cool.  The fans really are my life-blood most days.

http://www.flickr.com/photos/giagia/2671020638/

This is my favorite:


 


5)     And last, but certainly not least...Some amazing LJ foks and communities that I'd like to pimp - because they make the greatest art, fanfiction, fan mixes, episode re-caps, etc...Check em out!!

 

 

These people have really made me laugh and cry with their brilliant insights into the series and the upcoming film, and I thank them all!

10 MORE DAYS!!!

[info]xfiles   [info]smilescully  [info]meatfight  [info]truemyth   [info]leucocrystal   [info]xf_icons   [info]lastnamesonly   [info]mscreations 
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XF - You Must Believe
24th-Jun-2008 01:18 am - "THE XFILES: I WANT TO BELIEVE"
OOOH

XF - You Must Believe
6th-May-2008 03:21 pm - Meme time (again)
 Why am I so lazy?  I should be giving you a proper update about the ridiculous that was my Kentucky Derby roadtrip weekend - but, I think I'm going to hold off until I upload the photos.  You really really really need to see those to get the whole debaucherous picture of what that was like.

So!  In the meantime, a meme.  Pointless, but entertaining nonetheless.


SEVEN THINGS YOU WILL FIND IN YOUR ROOM:
1. My bed.
2. A Computer.
3. A white, feathery, lamp that looks like it belongs in a brothel circa 1895.
4. A bunch of clothes on the floor in a pile.
5. A TV.
6. A bookshelf filled with books and other random objects.
7. What looks like a fully stocked health and beauty aisle from a drug store on my windowsill.  I love products! :)

SEVEN RELATIONSHIP QUESTIONS:
1. Do you like anyone? Eh, got my eye on a couple of boys.  ;)
2. Does someone like you? Probably not at this moment, no.
3. Last kiss? Um...end of February.  Gosh, that's a long time ago.  :(
4. Been led on? Nah.
5. Been cheated on? Nope.
6. Want a relationship? It would be nice.
7. Wanna get married? Eventually.

SEVEN THINGS YOU CAN’T LIVE WITHOUT:
1. My friends and family.
2. Vitamin water
3. The Internet.
4. My XF DVDs!
5. Music
6. Sweat pants
7. My metrocard.

SEVEN THINGS ON YOUR MIND:
1. How am I going to lose enough weight in time for Amber's wedding?!
2. I can't wait for Vegas in June!
3. The wait for XF2 is killing me, but at the same time I'll be sad when it's over.
4. I need to call my Dad and make sure he's ok.
5. I feel like work is strangling me.
6. I wish I hadn't blown my bonus check quite so fast.
7. I want to go Grad school.

SEVEN OTHER THINGS - DO YOU:
1. Believe in God? Something's up there.
2. Had a dream come true? Sort of.
3. Read the newspaper? Sometimes.
4. (Looks like 4 is missing.)
5. Have a best friend? Yes.  A lot actually.  I feel really close to a lot of people at the moment, which makes me happy.
6. Hold grudges? Try not to.
7. Wish on stars? Haven't in a long time.

SEVEN HAVE YOU EVERS:
1. Fallen in love? Eh...jury's still out.
2. Kissed someone of the same sex? Yeah - college parties.  :)
3. Hooked up with someone who had a gf/bf? Unfortunately, yes.
4. Been to a bonfire? Yes.
5. Ran away from home? No.
6. Played strip poker? Yep.
7. Pulled an all nighter? Pretty frequently, actually.

SEVEN THINGS IN THE LAST 24 HOURS HAVE YOU:
1. Cried? No.
2. Had fun? Yes - Michelle's parents are visiting from Ireland and are truly hilarious and adorable!
3. Been hugged? Yep.
4. Felt stupid? Yes.
5. Talked to an ex? Nope.
6. Missed someone? I always miss a couple of people.
7. Listened to music? Yes.

SEVEN BANDS YOU REALLY LIKE AT THE MOMENT:
1. The Cardigans - why have I never paid attention to them before?!
2. Basia Bulat - OBSESSED!
3. Cat Power
4. The National
5. Rilo Kiley
6. Jason Mraz
7. Tegan & Sara

SEVEN SONGS RIGHT NOW:
1. Eddie Vedder - "Hard Sun"
2. Duffy - "Mercy"
3. The Cardigans - "You're the Storm"
4. Basia Bulat - "In the Night"
5. Lisa Loeb - "Underdog"
6. Glen Hansard and Marketa Irglova - "When Your Mind's Made Up"
7. The Orion Experience - "Obsessed with You"


SEVEN CONCERTS YOU WENT TO:
1. Bette Midler (7 times, actually!)
2. Feist
3. Dolly Parton (just last week!)
4. U2
5. Damien Rice
6. Barbra Streisand
7. Cher

SEVEN MOVIES YOU LOVE:
1. The Rose
2. Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind
3. Hedwig & the Angry Inch
4. Into the Wild
5. Steel Magnolias
6. Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas
7. The Rocky Horror Picture Show
XF - you're all things to me
1st-May-2008 05:23 pm - Kentucky Derby!


That's where I'll be this weekend kids!!

Check out these videos.  This will be the level of debauchery I'll be experiencing!  Wish me luck!

XF - You Must Believe
17th-Apr-2008 06:18 pm - OMG
I think I'm going to cry!!!

Somehow - and I swear to GOD I have NO IDEA how this happened - all the words, pictures, listings, etc from my profile are GONE.  I don't understand!  How could this happen - there was so much in there!  

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XF - You Must Believe
13th-Apr-2008 11:37 pm - Gah!
So yeah, on the 'me' front - I was hungover pretty bad today.  Carolyn's brother came into town from Boston and took us out for a wild night of outdoor eating, debaucherous drinking, sing alongs at gay bars and 3am pizza.  And lest we forget - THE GROSSEST STORY EVER TOLD.   I would repeat it here, but it wouldn't do it justice.  Let's just say he had an accident on the way to a big job interview and how he got out of trouble in the men's room is priceless.  He's quite the storyteller!  Give me a run for my money actually!

So yeah, today was a basically a total waste, but I got to chill out with Mari and her friend Sarah, and then Erica came over for our XF Rewatch 2008.  We're 3 episodes away from finishing Season 4.  Go team!!

This week has a lot of promise - work is picking up a good pace of things that I actually want to spend time doing, and it's a short work week for me to boot!  Carolyn and I have taken off on Friday for NY Comic Con!  YES!!  Chris Carter & Frank Spotnitz and some new XF2 footage is sooo close!

And!!!

I'm sure plenty of people on my friends pages will be posting these photos, but let me just throw my hat into the ring and give everyone another chance to look at these gems.

Yes, I'm gay for GA.  LOL!



   



GA - tender tendrils
9th-Apr-2008 02:55 pm - I want to believe so badly...
They said the birds refused to sing and the thermometer fell suddenly; as if God Himself had His breath stolen away.  No one there dared speak aloud, as much in shame as in sorrow.  They uncovered the bodies one by one. The eyes of the dead were closed as if waiting for permission to open them.  Were they still dreaming of ice cream and monkey bars?  Of birthday cake and no future but the afternoon?  Or had their innocence been taken along with their lives - buried in the cold earth so long ago?  These fates seemed too cruel, even for God to allow.  Or are the tragic young born again when the world's not looking? 

I want to believe so badly; in a truth beyond our own - hidden and obscured from all but the most sensitive eyes...

In the endless procession of souls... in what cannot and will not be destroyed.  I want to believe we are unaware of God's eternal recompense and sadness.  That we cannot see His truth.  That that which is born still lives and cannot be buried in the cold earth.  But only waits to be born again at God's behest... where in ancient starlight we lay in repose...

"Closure" opening voiceover 


 
XF - Put your mouth to mine
7th-Apr-2008 12:38 pm - Name that tune!!
 Or, more appropriately, name the song that contains these lyrics.  :)  But that doesn't sound nearly as catchy!

I've done this once before and had a good time with it - though it's been probably over a year, so with all the new faces around here, let's see how many you can guess!

These are the songs that I got when I put my Ipod on random.  Reply with your guesses!

1)  "you should have known by now, yo'uve every cause to doubt me..."

2)  "cuz the day you realize how amazing you are you're gonna leave me..."

3)  "...in avarice and love, to suckle on the blood, of some forgotten god, sell it like it is..."

4)  "a hundred and three is forever when you're just a little kid, so Cyrus Jones lived forever..."  GRAVEDIGGER, DAVE MATTHEWS.  [info]simplydivine got it!!

5)  "I took the notes of past excursions, and I read them through once more..."

6)  "Oh, all that I know, there's nothing here to run from - and there everybody here's got somebody to lean on"

7)  "...and I can feel it in my bones, I'm gonna spend my whole life alone..."   FUCK AND RUN, LIZ PHAIR. [info]mattmisbehaves

8)  "If I could be your angel, I'd trade in my arms for some wings, to keep you close to me"  TO DESERVE YOU, BETTE MIDLER. [info]nyc_live

9)  "you have suffered enough, and warred with yourself, it's time that you won"  FALLING SLOWLY, GLEN HANSARD & MARKETA IRGLOVA. [info]thisbirdcansing got it!!

10)  "...turning saints into the sea, swimming through sick lullabies, choking on your alibis"  MR. BRIGHTSIDE, THE KILLERS.  [info]mariemaru

11)  "wait for me, wait for me, darling, I need you desperately, desperately, here"

12)  "...I'd pretend to be sleeping, when you'd come in in the morning"

13)  "Oh, I'll be the one to break my heart, I'll be the one to hold the gun"  I FEEL IT ALL, FEIST. [info]xcelianax

14)  "...and I see, that these are the eyes of disarray"

15)  "every second of the night, I live another life"  THESE DREAMS, HEART. [info]mariemaru

16)  "my body aches to breathe your breath"  POSSESSION, SARAH MCLACHLAN. [info]meatfight

17)  "why do you come here, and pretend to be just passing by?"  THE WEAKNESS IN ME, JOAN ARMATRADING. [info]sciencekitty

18)  "and the little boys souls grow weak wehn the girls give them a double shot"  E STREET SHUFFLE, BETTE MIDLER (BRUCE SPRINGSTEEN). [info]nyc_live

19)  "the stained glass curtain you're hiding behind never lets in the sun"  ONLY THE GOOD DIE YOUNG, BILLY JOEL. [info]thisbirdcansing

20)  "you called up in the sky, you called up in the clouds..."

21)  "come over here lady, let me wipe your tears away..."

22)  "...for city girls, who lived up the stair, with all that perfumed hair, and it came undone..."

23)  "and time will make it heal, and time will make it gone"  THE DIFFERENT, MELISSA ETHERIDGE. [info]thisbirdcansing

24)  "life goes easy on me, most of the time"  THE BLOWER'S DAUGHTER. [info]xcelianax

25)  "you could lip sync to the talk shows..."
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